Leaving in one more wk/superficial world

Hey, coming to blog again. Sigh... last wk no Amazing Race coz didn't write my article on it. Haha, despite knowing that not much ppl are reading it, i still write it, haha. I actually have 2 BBQ this wk. Hmm, and i put on weight liao lah.... Keep on eating and eating. So sad.(As if i was happy b4) Hmm... i'm leaving next wk for China & HK liao. A bit pity lah coz i dun hv the chance to go for the 2 gatherings, xinma camp and helping to distribute huixun. Our huixun now hor... coz all of our new txys(including me...) dunno how to pai ban, then yijun was telling us that many pgs cannot make it lah. I'll rather it's yijun whom tells us our mistakes, rather than WZ lah. Yijun really wants us to learn but WZ hor, juz wanna show off his paiban skill lah....
Hmm... my china trip, i haven't even gotten my vaccine yet lah coz there is no stock for so many clinics. What if really i get it if i go China?(touch wood)
Sigh, how come like many ppl beside me are betraying & cheating me? Perhaps i'm too pessimistic... I always ask myself lah, can i be more optimistic? I tried already, but i dun really can. Coz really i got so many things liao, but juz not love. I'm able to get the best results in class, the longest testimonial in class, status in school(as the president of my CCA), fame(by appearing on tv)... and many others lah. It seems that i'm not getting love. Xinying has also asked me if that is ur priority now? We know that studies shld be our priority now but as we know humans have unlimited wants, since i'm now stable in my studies, i'll wanna pursue other things. Juz like grown-ups, who said that career is their priority, but when their career is stable, they will consider to get married, right? It is the same thing wat. Like many ppl always tell me that they are "xian mu" abt me, getiing everything which they dun have, and telling me that my love life is very near to me. But these are really "ke tao hua", trying to console me ah? Thanx a lot lah! Maybe i dun get love, a major reason is due to the fact that i was "blessed" with a pair of almost useless legs. Due to this fact, i can't really go for sports which gals like, e.g. basketball, soccer. Ya, the world is so superficial, many ppl are going for all these, which i dun have. Well, rather than asking me not to think too much abt engaging into a true relationship, i shld try to convince myself that i'm living in a superficial world.