It should be time for me to give up!

Hmm... I haven't updated my blog for quite a while, it's time for me to do so. Really find that the blog is something useful for me coz i really need it. When i encounter problems, i can juz write everything here. Sigh.... I'm really very sad for this past wk. Suhwei kind of really scared of me liao, i've a feeling that she doesn't really wanna interact with me. When i saw her with Alvin chatting together, i always think that why can't i be that guy? Luck & fate are really not on my side. My heart really broke when she treated me in this way, because i really like her. I really dunno what to do. And that time i sent her the prank sms, she is really kind of fed up. Somemore, she is so much clever than me. I pei bu shang her. I must really accept the fact that i'm having no luck in my love life, even if i dun get married for my rest of my life, i really must accept. My friends always ask me to look on the bright side of life but everything happening now really "inform" me that i can't look on the bright side of life. I have quite a lot of sleepless night, thinking over if i should really give her up... It is really a painful & a tough decision to make. But what if i dun give up, will i really get a chance? If i give her up, it is very painful and i'll be so depressed. I haven't loved a person so deeply before. Should i really give up & really go and like somebody else or should i not coz i really love her? I'm really in such a dilemma!