My feelings are complicated like hell

Hello everyone, I'm back to blog. Dun wanna talk abt anymore philosophy of life, coz i think that i can tell u guys more after i go NS.

Anyway, i juz have lots of feelings now. I think that my feelings now are very complicated, coz i'm entering NS in like 4 days. I juz realised that i needa adapt another new environment again. I haven't experienced a new environment for few yrs le, i think that the last time was in JC. However, this time round, i'm more afraid. Not that i'm being a baby or sumting, coz i'm realli scared that i can't get along with the ppl. Coz in jc, if u can't get along with others well, u can still work alone. However, in NS, u realli needa get along with others well coz it's realli teamwork in NS. Somemore, i realli dunno what ppl will i meet. In JC, u can expect what ppl from what schools will u be meeting. There is so much of unknowns which i actually totally detest it. Hope that i can adapt to it in 1-2days.

Then, i also feel a better sad that i gonna leave home. My parents and sister will be worried. I always hear them saying that my room will be empty and there will be 1 pair of chopsticks lesser on the dining table for a while. It's realli sad to hear them saying it. Well, at least my maid needa cook lesser.

Of course, i gonna miss txy. I've been there for almost all weekends since the beginning of the yr. I made lots of new friends, in particular ruiying newbies. I realli have lots of fun there for the past 2 yrs. I'm also happy to help out in the orientation. Honestly speaking, i realli wanna help in wenhuaying coz i missed the one last yr. Well, i still can't help this time round and i gonna wait for 2 more yrs. Realli feel a bit sad.
Then the last thing to address is abt ruiying. Sigh.... realli there are lots of prob present. I didn't wanna address it to chengyao coz i'm still around to help out. Now, i'll be leaving for NS and xingdan maybe busy in her poly days, i told chengyao that we realli gonna do sumting. Well,, he did tell me his thinking and it isn't a bad idea, coz it shld help to improve ruiying in any aspects. Realli hope that ruiying is as strong as ever even i left for NS. I miss u guys