I'm depressed & aimless

Like I say, people then to have more inspiration to blog when they are in a bad mood, especially in a freaking foul mood. That's what i'm in now.

I hurt my knee, is given a 1 week mc. Happy? Not at all. Imagine i gonna stay at home, facing the 4 walls, with the computer and tv. Tv is boring, computer isn't fun. What can i do? I'm juz like a handicap staying at home.

Juz felt very depressed of many things that had happened, and also things that happen recently that are linked with unhappy stuffs in the past. Today one of my friends intended to visit me, but juz bangseh me in the end without a call or sms. I'm damn pissed. And becoz of this incident, i totally can't trust ppl at all, not even myself. I always tell myself that i needa be happy, but did i?

I'm not happy at all when i'm going to recover. Why? If i'm in pain, at least i have some distraction for my depressing life. But when i'm not in pain, i juz get damn depressed. Perhaps u say that i'm trying to avoid my life, but who isn't?

Sometimes juz feel that why i needa suffer all these? Perhaps like some of u think, i'm a bad guy. Perhaps i'm. Or maybe i did sumting wrong in my past life?

I'm sick of ppl asking me to 看开. It's easier to be said than to be done.

I juz desperately need accompany at times. Who will be there? Nobody....

I juz feel that i'm living in a world whereby nobody understands me at all. What for living on earth then? I know that there is only 1 way to fully relieve myself frm all these depression, but shld i? I'm still thinking

*At the point of the time that i blog, i mean what i say. If you think that i'm trying to catch attention, so be it....


LIFE IS HORRIBLE