My duty on Earth?

Well, juz came back from a k-box session with txy. Haha, realised that i cannot sing and it is once again proven that my singing sux. Know that i'd pulled a long face for the session coz many things had happened recently. This really doubts my duty on Earth. Such a typical Billy's entry, right?

Well, once again something happened to my love life. As usual, it's bad news. The gal whom ppl think that she likes me, she is currently dating another guy. Why did she take the initiative then and made me misunderstand? Well, another bad experience for my love life. So typical, right?

Then, my regime as the ruiying leader is ending in few mths. Well, what had i contributed? Well, i dun think so. Calling members to go sph and do huixun, everyone can do, as long as u have a handphone and their contact numbers. Leading a meeting, is juz like chatting with my members. Who can't do it unless u dun have a mouth? I shld know how to do a huixun but yet, i dunno how to pai ban, dunno this dunno that, and somemore, i dun even know how to use a photocopy machine. Sucking leader like me....... Perhaps i'm the most useless person in zhong yang.

So after so many things had happened, i began to think abt my duty on Earth. Perhaps i was produced to be rejected, mocked, isolated and hated. Obviously, my duty isn't to entertain. Perhaps u say that i can joke, but some ppl hate my jokes. I can't sing and of course my looks are not entertaining. My duty is to lead? Well i am doing a very bad job for ruiying and my school.... not worth to be mentioned.

So obviously, i'm produced to be rejected, by gals especially. To be mocked, obviously i'm. To be isolated, for sure, being isolated for so many yrs in school. To be hated, so many ppl hate me, i know it! These are my duties on Earth.

If this is the case, i'm leading a hard and tiring life. Sooner or later, i'll not be able to carry on. My duty will sooner or later be completed. What can i do when i think that my duty in life has finished? Ending perhaps will be a good choice since it is a chore for me to lead my life( Sorry for sounding so sucidal(did i spell correctly?) but that is what i think)

Lastly, i must apologise to those who went for the the k-ing session today. Sorry aileen, qing xiang, bingrong, chengyao, xiaohan, dianjun,jiahao and huixiang. Perhaps i shldn't be there today and i believed to have spoilt the fun. I dun mean if u all will hate me for this coz i deserve it, since my duty on Earth is to be hated.....